The Not So Usual Almost Monday  

12.02.2017

About myself:

Okay! I am Rohan and like any other average guy, my life is going somewhere I am yet to figure out. Did you ever come across this strange and weird situation and you did not want that weird situation to be "your" situation. That is exactly how I feel these days. I am 29 but confused as much a 20 year old when I see/talk of life. 

I see people on FB, Insta & apps like the Snapchat (Jesus Fucking Christ why are people on this app - get a life assholes). They all look happy. They are either getting hitched, becoming parents, travelling, partying, eating, celebrating life and I am like what's wrong with me? People like me or may be even worse than me are youtuber's these days. They are minting money and have a fan following. Like life was not cruel enough and then these show up. Things like these just shake your self-confidence & slap you in the face for being normal nowadays.

One thing I've realised by looking at the world (I have seen so far) is that if you have been an average student, an average employee, an average son - this world does not care about you. You got to raise your game in every domain for people to acknowledge that you exist, that you are just like them. 

14:31 P.M

Not so usual because I start writing today. I have not been someone who has been very expressive with his words or actions till date. Misunderstood for not being caring and sane at times because of it.

But I never cared because I am an introvert (I guess). Is that weird? I don't think so. There are people like me out there. Boring (for others) may be, but yes they do exist. And extroverts - Fuck you! 

It's my birthday today. Not the english one. We celebrate two - both with the same enthusiasm. The day started with birthday pooja and breakfast. What followed was a game of FIFA and then a movie. 

Picking up the lappy for starting this took about an hour. Convincing myself to start before the moment goes away is what took an hour, which means I can be convinced over a period of time.

I hope to write more. More about the people I meet, about the experiences I have, about the actions I take, about the decisions I make, about what I think of someone/something, about love, about heartbreaks, about expectations, about family & about friends.

Nevertheless, I look forward to maintain this as a diary (a memory in writing). Managing this for a year would be a task but I will try because I would want to learn from it when the year ends.